Bipolar – Garrett Gessell

i haven’t taken a shower in a few days.

There will be days – as someone with a Psychological disorder – where the hurt will hurt more than it should. There will be days – as someone with too many thoughts and too many questions – where all time ceases to exist locked in a moment of discomfort and fear. There will be daysContinue reading “i haven’t taken a shower in a few days.”

The Ups

It’s very simple to feel good when good things happen. Sometimes they happen very rapidly and you forget for a moment that bad things even happen at all. It’s hard to remind yourself that there is a world around you that is hurting. A place where people are not safe. People are not happy. SomeContinue reading “The Ups”

To See Me.

There is magic in the written word. Not just for others but for ones own sanity. I feel if I did not write, I would not know what I am feeling as my brain cannot write down on itself to inform itself of its current state. If I were not to write my heart onContinue reading “To See Me.”

Trapped

Some days aren’t perfect. No days can really be perfect but some days are challenging. Overwhelming even with feelings of being trapped or alone. It feels inevitable and irreversible. Today I am feeling trapped. The atmosphere has decided the snow will come as rain, the rain will freeze to ice on the ground like anContinue reading “Trapped”

Mindless in Indianapolis

Sunday morning – my Mother and young Sister are sleeping in the bed of the Air BnB that I took out for this adventure to meet Tim. I am sitting with my legs crossed on an extended chair that I slept on over the night, my hands gingerly tip tapping in slow motion as notContinue reading “Mindless in Indianapolis”

Last Day of Partial Hospitalization

Its 11:11 AM – make a wish I suppose. I am sitting at the single computer (the very slow computer) within the Occupational Therapy Clinic. Having had created two mugs here in serenity while Jazz Hop LoFi played in the background I thought might take the time for Reflection, again listening to the magical soundsContinue reading “Last Day of Partial Hospitalization”