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i haven’t taken a shower in a few days.

There will be days – as someone with a Psychological disorder – where the hurt will hurt more than it should. There will be days – as someone with too many thoughts and too many questions – where all time ceases to exist locked in a moment of discomfort and fear. There will be daysContinue reading “i haven’t taken a shower in a few days.”

To See Me.

There is magic in the written word. Not just for others but for ones own sanity. I feel if I did not write, I would not know what I am feeling as my brain cannot write down on itself to inform itself of its current state. If I were not to write my heart onContinue reading “To See Me.”

Trapped

Some days aren’t perfect. No days can really be perfect but some days are challenging. Overwhelming even with feelings of being trapped or alone. It feels inevitable and irreversible. Today I am feeling trapped. The atmosphere has decided the snow will come as rain, the rain will freeze to ice on the ground like anContinue reading “Trapped”

Departure.

Today there was some things that had me on the edge of my worst self. I was a little angry. A little messed up and scared of myself in the moment. No amount of Jazz Hop LoFi can pull me away from the things that I am. I was taught these things and only IContinue reading “Departure.”

Journey with Tim: Experience of a Lifetime.

I’ve only just finished sprinkling Starbucks Espresso Grounds across my grandfather’s Town and Country van. Returning from Indianapolis in the Nissan Sentra that I wish I had the money to keep, made me loathe the overwhelming smell of gasoline in this van. In short, my trip has made me realise the changes I have toContinue reading “Journey with Tim: Experience of a Lifetime.”

Journey to Tim Rogers

Day 1 of my Journey to Tim Rogers. My mother and kid sister of 11 are now accompanying me on the trip. Nothing is more comforting than being surrounded by love on a very tiring and inspiring trip. This was very spontaneous for all of us and it was very scary for me until them.Continue reading “Journey to Tim Rogers”

Acceptance and Grief

During my last day of Partial Hospitalization we had a deeper discussion on the ideas of experiencing hurt. Of being damaged, abandoned, or crushed not just by others but also by ourselves. Our Psychotherapist spoke of the prayer that goes “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to changeContinue reading “Acceptance and Grief”